It's just that I feel rather queasy being in a company of a crowd that's not exactly my crowd anymore. A lot have changed since then, including the very structure of the organization I once actually considered myself a part of.  I also feel nervous being up against nominees who are younger and much more bibo than I am. And, of course, who can also forget that travesty of an event last year, which felt more like a 3-hour powerpoint presentation than an awards night. Diyos ko….

Nonetheless, I am still honored to be nominated, what with this being my final year of eligibiltity and all. So I'm hoping for the best this October 20. Should I attend, I guess there's no other recourse than to treat it as a chance to reunite with all my fellow TLS alumni…

 And should the results turn out in my favor, that'll be the added bonus.